It is also dedicated to my husband M who, like a genie in a bottle, is helping me make my dreams come true!
If you look back at what I wrote last July 4, 2007 - (www.dharmadream.blogspot.com/2007/07/dream-job.html) you will understand that I am being true to my name, my life's calling.
In April, I will finally do what my heart desires! I will be attending a 25-hour yoga course on POST NATAL Teacher Training in KL, Malaysia. It's module 2 of a 100-hour Yoga for Pregnancy, Birth and Beyond. (www.yogainasia.com/postnatal.asp). That's just the tip of the ice, darlings! In May 4-30, there is a Ashtanga and Iyengar teacher training in Boracay (boracayyoga.com) and M has agreed to fund me, come along and take care of Santi while I train during the day. Weeeee!
2009 is so SUPER because this year I intend to spread my wings and finally FLY! I don't know what hit us, some retrograde or what but M and I have this mantra of chasing our dreams no matter how big. Why waste time when we only have THIS ONE LIFETIME to fulfill our destiny? So we better make the most out of it! By the way, he is also in the brink of something BIG but I will save that for another post.
Just 2 days ago I had a melt down because I wanted to do this career path so badly but thought I couldn't because I am still breastfeeding my almost 2 year old son. Now that I look back, it was just major PMS. I told M so many disturbing things like:
'Do you think our lives was put on hold because we had a child?', 'Am I being selfish to want to stop breastfeeding and go take time to do what I want/need to do?, 'Should I say goodbye to this yearning because I am now a mom and should prioritize Santi?', 'I am feeling so guilty for wanting to do this and fear that Santi might get traumatized because I wont be there when he wants to breastfeed'.M, being the fab hubby that he is assured me what a wonderful mom I am for being so hands on and breastfeeding til now. He reminded me that the path I chose in parenting is the road less traveled and yet more rewarding because our son is so close to us right now. You should see him hug and kiss us several times a day!
So, after much thought, I decided to go for it. Santi will be tagging along with me in my KL trip (thanks to my parents who will watch him while I am gone during the day) and I am slowly weaning him from day feeds for the May training. M has agreed to take a leave from work to be able to take care of Santi who is turning 2 on May 9 so perfect timing because 'Breastfeeding is best up to 2 years' :)
There was a time that I thought being a good mom meant staying at home 24/7. Now I have come to terms with the fact that empowered women/moms CAN also do more and FLY. I have always said that I have respect for mothers that work (because it breaks their hearts to leave their babies behind) but now I really mean it. Because I will be doing that very same thing I vowed not to do, work/train away from home. Being a mom should NOT stop me from doing what I want to do, becoming who I was meant to be. Sure, I may have to sacrifice at first, prioritize... but I can still compromise and work around my schedule. Motherhood shouldn't hinder me from passions, dreams, goals. In fact, I am defined MORE because despite having to be fully responsible for another dependent human being, I can STILL be able to accomplish more.
Mothers are excellent multi-taskers and achievers! I should be able to find strength and inspiration from so many loving moms who are also great doctors, teachers, presidents, etc!
The evolution of my life amazes me. I am definitely growing more and more as an individual with my family and friends supporting me in this journey. Cheers to another chapter in my life. At age 26, my light comes out to shine :)